Saturday, 11 December 2010

had fun @ jepot *take a pic every moment* lol

jepot village.. ^^

yey, finally sampe juga di jepot.. it was planning on some month ago.hoho it was long long journey, wasn't it?? hahh??? ada yang cinlok??haha i donno, maybe just our feeling *sebenarnya udah lama ain't @jepot* ckckc.. but i dont wanna story about that now.* takut di cubitin+diomelin* >.<

Friday, 10 December 2010

the third anniversary 021210 :(

actually i should be happy in this moment cuz our love relationship old enough but it's a big problem for me.. :( yu know why?? bcuz my time with him less.. only some month left, hiks hiks hiks >.<..

klo ngingat yang satu ini, i feel my spirit lost.. i can't breath.. if i should die before i wake, it's cause he took my breath away,loosing him is like living in the world with no air.. but forget it, cuz i have to trhough it someday..

Sunday, 28 November 2010

wanna be with yu...^^

it's sunny sunday..feels so lonely.. i dont know why he punish me like this.. he feels like far away from me.. perhaps my feeling only, and it makes me lonely..aaaaaaaargh... it's not only my feeling but its the truth... i'm lonely..... i dont want to be alone:(

saya maonya kamu selalu ada buat aku... i wanna always be with yu.. tapi apa?? yu dont mind.. :( napa siich???? waktu kita bentar lagi kan?? tapi kita udah jarang ketemu.... ajakan aku selalu aja di IGNORE.. fufufuf thanks for hurting me.. THANKS SO MUCH.. yu knoww that i want yu but yu always make me upset with yu...

Tuesday, 23 November 2010


eeeeerrrggghhh... kapan aku sembuh dari aktivitas menyebalkan ini... MENGGARUK... cape gw.. tiap malam, pagi siang sore malam lagi... menggaruk aja muluk... eeehhh.. itch, aku tuch punya banyak kerjaan lain yang harus aku selesaiin, aaahhh fuck up!!

sometimes i feel so upset, cuz you are so annoyed.. specially when i wanna do something important, or i'm in the public car, aku harus garuk dulu , even i'm shy actually.. idk Y it happen to me... uuppsss, no... not just me, but my others friend also felt that...exactly, in the same room in my friens dorm felt it all..ckckck... idk exacly what the causes, bcuz,when i went to doctor to check up, he just said that its a common itch, dont worry!! uuurgh, but the fact, it makes my skin broke..

Sunday, 21 November 2010

ceneng aza... happy mode on.. :)

hhhahhayy... finally, my blog bisa terbuka juga, setelah sekian lama menunggu kehadirannya.. ckkckck *apa2an ini*.. seneng bisa curhat disini lagi, so many event was haapen in my life, but i didn't share at my nice blog, cuzzz lagi ada trouble di blog aku ini...

Sunday, 3 October 2010

sat nite @ pizza ria cafe

This is sat nite, awalnya kami boring tinggal di sekret (dormnya nela), 2 harian di sekret ga keluar rasanya sumpet bagt.. originally boring. Pas malming gitu aku iseng aja sms ke banyak ngajakin teman2 keluar, bberapa dari mereka ada yang respon sih, ada yang lagi malas keluar lah, ada yang lagi ngapel pacarnya lah, but yu know respon dari pute dia lagsung iyakan aja... wow.. good.. awal yang baik..hoho.. then aku sms lagi ke teman2 , ngajakin makan pizza abis ngiler tadi liat masakann itali di TV, nah, respon teman2 berbeda2 lagi, ada yang bilang “OGAHHHH”, ada yang bilang “ tadi aku dah makan pizza ijo ( urrgh,pisang ijo kaleee)” . but respon dari pute akhirnya positif lagi, dia mengiyakan...

Friday, 1 October 2010


Let me laugh first..

Now, let’s continue our topic, english education departement, it’s my major that dedicated to be a good teacher,my lovely parent’s chose for me for make me smarter and a be a real human (maksud lo?). they want me to be a teacher, favorite job in my family dari jaman doeloe, and be a new hell for me... I know, ac2ly is very good major but i cant fighting in this major cuz i can not teaching. I really cant do that. If can transfert my knowledge to the other,why not?i will... But it my first problem,, i cant transfeer my knowledge. I just can read and write. Ac2ly, dulu i wanted to be a teacher, but ini dulu bgt nich, when i didn’t know anything about thiss world. But now, i’ve practise to be a teacher, and i realized that it’s very not suitable for me. even tought, EED has many chance to be a official servent.

Thursday, 3 June 2010

boredom moment :(


Dis night is very boring.. i have online but i still bored... wad happened to me? What do i want?? How i ask somebody, i ma sefl don’t know wad i want... danm meeeeeee.... stressed....!!
I feel miss body or thing.. but i dunno who or wad? Uuuurgh maybe i just think about thing is named money hahahaha... but why? I still have money kok... so wad???

bantimurung...just for fun..^^

hahaha nich dia moment menyambut final test... refreshing in bantimurung.. wehwehwhe.. waktunya emang kenalik tapi ga papa lah yang penting kita happy, and enjiy it..hihihi...
sumpah ni hari is very pleasure,..kenyang abis makan ikan di empangnya ktua tingkat [baca :aiwx] di lanjutkan dengan mandi bareng..upz.. jangna ngeres dulu, maksud aku disini nich..

seruuu bgt nih apalagi besiknya udah final.,, semua beban hilang pas sampai di rumah baru keingat kagiii.. urhg tapi sekarang aku cuma pengen ngomongin yang senang2nya ajaaaaa. no tugas in my mind now... just for fun...

this unforgetable moment in this place.. di tambah lagi ama kedatang ayank au'.. perfect,, happy struggle.. hehehe
jujur aja sebelum dia datang aku boried bgt.. semuanya terasa garing, jayus and sebagainya..

say thanks for awi and his family who invited us to go to their home for luch..hahaha..

Sunday, 23 May 2010

my brothers over there

i'm a fortune girl, why i say that, cuz i have many new kind brothers from foreign... i feel i'm lucky to know them.. it's very pleasure for me, it's wonderful.. altought sometimes my english is very limited when i wanna talk more with them.. hhahahaha

now i wanna all of u know my great brothers, they are pee tholf, alex and the younger one is erick.. they are my inspiration to write this one.. i never meet them, but i feel near from them, thought we're far apart but they are always in my heart..^^

when one of them come [read:online] i feel happy, i think my guardian angle has came..hahahaha.. i like them so much, they make me forget my problem when i'm in a problem. so i always miss them...*_*

u know, when i'm going down, and they came, just make me smile, and i feel that they give me some sunshine, give me some praise, give me another chance and i wanna grow up once again..hahahaha i know it's not directly, but i feel like that..

ok.. i wanna u to know them..
the first, my elder brother,pee tholft,22 yo, he is from thailand, i love him so much. he is very cool, comfortable,funny, kind, modest, witty, and he said that he is friendly.. ummm. ok, i agree with u pee.. hahahaha.. but he always griping that his english is weak. i know he wanna say something more to me, but he feels, he has limited word to say it. never mind pee, i understand..hehehehe looooool.. when he speechless i always disturb him..heheheh i'm sorry pee. ^^

this is pee tholft picture.. so cool, isn't it???

next, alex, he is the second brother, he was born on 3 des 90, he stay in usa,but he from south america. he very care to me. i love him, he is very sensitive boy, i always kidding him.hahahah he is very caring, fussy, cute, solidarity, full of affection, he is a good lover, loyal with his girlfriend. he always teach me spanish, he is a good teacher..hahaha oh yeah, something unspeakable appear in my mind when i think about alex.he very care to me..

he is alex
and the last erick, 16 yo, from united kingdom, london. sometimes i feel erick is older than me, he is very mature. i have met him, not directly, just in webcam in msn. he looks very mature, i don't think his age still 16 yo. he is very kind,caring and comfortable, he always gives me praise,umm and he likes hello kitty..hohohoho.. what else?? pokoknya i love him, he always makes me smile with his caring. i dont think the boy who 16 yo give me caring like the boy who older than me.. hahaha i love u brother..^^

he is erick, my younger brother.^^

i think enough, for introduction, hhahaha.. i love so much my brother, i wish, they never leave me..
somehow at the back of my mind, i told myself, this is happy struggle.
yes, happy struggle i see them :)
you can see where am i heading now --> i wish i am not alone in this.
hahahahaaaa :p

by the way, maybe somebody don't understand my post, forgive me i use english indonesian style.hhahhahaha..loooool..

oh yeah.. don't forget add comment, if u have read this.. okkkkkksss!!!!

Friday, 21 May 2010

close friend..^^

Jajajajaja, klo saya dengar kata ini saya pengen ketawa sendiri..saya bingun apa artinya.. mungkin aja aku salah mengartikan semua ini.. tapi biarlah, i dont worry.. apapun itu yang jelas aku menyuikai hubungan ini,.. closed friend with foreign..

yupz.. i love them.. hohohoho... ini semua karna saya butuh perhatian sama seseorang tapi dia kadang ga respek sama aku makanya ga salahkan klo aku sekali2 ke luar negri gitu sapa tua ada yang cocok seperti yang aku mau, walaupun impossible untuk di ajak nikah tapi paing tidak closed friend lah..ahhahhaa..

I’m sorry bephz mgkn kamu nganggap klo ini sama aja dengan seligkuh but u ingat ga kamu juga sering gini bahasa kamu sich kamu bilang Cuma sekedar ade kakak. Nah klo kamu menghalalkan itu buat kamu, jadi kamu juga harus menghalalkan ini buat saya, have a closed friend.

Hihiihii.. ^_^ saya sebenarnya ga enak klo harus berbagi kesedihan sama orang lain but sama kamu pun aku ga bisa melakukan semua itu, u know ga kamu tuh klo dah ada kegiatan kamu dah lupa sama aku buat balas smsku pun kamu ga bisa. So i need closed friend for sharing..hihihihi
Huuft.aku akui sebenarnya aku ga bisa tanpa kamu, aku lemah, apa lagi klo akhirnya kamu nyuruh aku untuk memilih,. Sebenarnya yang aku inginkan itu Cuma kamu seorang.. i don’t want another. But i understand ure so busy man. Tapi jujur aja kadang saya cemburu bgt sama kamu klo kmu punya closed friend, kamu bilang ade kk, karna kamu kea pacaran aza, pake sayang2, cium2,. Oh my god it’s hurt... sedangkan saya ga sampai segitunya ji..

Saturday, 8 May 2010

ga tao!! i don't know!!

i dunno how to say my feeling now.. i feel i'm going crazy.. i look foolish now, i don't know, why i luph him so much!! but he doesn't care about it, he doesnt worth my faithful, he is playboy..i know it means he is a bad boy..huhuhu :(

but i give thanks to my friend who always support me, and makes me happy, nak goffek and my beloved brother,pee tholft.. luph u all, brother and my sisters.. u are the best..

back to my feeling.. i really don't know how to discribe my feeling now. i know, i broke up with him but why he always give expectation?? it's hurt me, it's pain. i know that i have many weakness, but i know i perfect lover..huhuhu

now, i want all of u know my feeling today.. i'm sad, i'm confuse, i'm foolish, i'm disapointed, i'm hurt, i wanna die.